Wrestling with God- Anyone want to tag me out?

     Anyone who knows me, knows that I tend to be a bit impatient. I'm patient with kids, with love, with family, and friends.. BUT when it comes to patience with God, my rope is short and my patience is thin. I find myself wrestling with God on a daily basis, and it is EXHAUSTING.

    My most recent "match" with God has involved VCU. To be blunt, VCU has been taunting me and dangling my graduation over my head. Making me jump through hoops and do tricks, like a dog, but neglecting me my treat after a job well done. INFACT, VCU is like that dog owner who ties a treat on a string, tapes it to the end of the treadmill, sets the treadmill on HIGH and takes their dog "for a walk" on the treadmill by TAUNTING them with the UNATTAINABLE treat.

   Allow me to briefly explain.     I went into VCU expecting to do the 5 year Masters program in TEACHING. However, a few mandatory classes turned into electives and I found myself on the 7 year plan, so I went to an advisor and asked " what do I have to do to get out the fastest" and he said RELIGIOUS STUDIES, so this is how I am where I am today. A religious studies major, with no clue what I will do with my degree, and no clue when I will actually get outta here. You see, I went to an advising appointment ( which took 1.5 weeks to get ) and they said that I needed 2 specific classes which I was NOT in, and could no longer GET into because I was Past the add/drop date ( need I say that if they would have been more effective in getting me an appointment when I called I would not be in this pickle) to graduate. So, this advising appointment I went to expecting to hash out graduation plans, turned into a crying fest with me balling in front of a stranger and realizing I would be wrestling with God for even LONGER, until MAY with my VCU dilemmas.

    Although, I have been frustrated beyond belief with VCU, I have learned a lot from this experience. Patience, being more bold, knowledge about different religions, that I have to do things MYSELF and not rely on other people, and the validity of my own faith to name a few. The most important lesson I have learned so far, is that God allows me to wrestle with Him to GROW. Growth has been a common theme in my SO FAR 4.5 years at VCU, and it will continue to be a theme until May. And I know that God will not allow me to tag team anyone else on this one... It's all on me, and I'm learning to be OKAY with that.